Back to Basics

Everything you do gets on my nerves. I don't hate you, but you make it difficult to love you. I don't require much. But I need the basic TLC...
That was my latest tweet on Twitter. And it is too real. After I have already admitted the absence of my father had a significant bearing on how I handle relationships, the problem still persists.
I'm starved for male attention.
And if you think, as a woman, you don't need it...think again.
Male attention doesn't necessarily mean I need every dude on my friend list to comment on my facebook pictures. I don't need random dudes calling me at all hours of the life. It might be nice, but that is not what I am after.
I just want all this attention from ONE male and the more I seek it, the less it is offered.
I am his only daughter.
How difficult can it be to spread the love?

I try hard not to let this one man affect how I view all men, but I'm telling you it's difficult. I can honestly tell you that there is not ONE man alive that I completely trust.
The men in my life have never shown up, abused me, assaulted me, lied to me, and abandoned me.
Now, I'm not actively looking for someone to break the cycle. Although I know one will break the mold one day.
I just don't want to care about it so much.
I don't want to think about it.
I don't want it to affect my happiness any longer.
And so I pray about it every day and every night.
If you're reading this, all I ask is that you pray about it too.

Thanks

Alexany <3