I Don't Believe Them Boys

I don't believe them boys
When they say they want intellect
I have a ton of that
But he left me for some bigger breast
Checklist in hand
I am more than qualified
"Oops one thing missing
You're not Aphrodite personified"
Wondering why I have so many issues
"Not good enough magazine" I'm tryna cancel my subscription
Say you want brains
But mere beauty is your obvious mission
He said if I gave him brains
Then he'd give me more attention
Daddy. Daddy wasn't there.
Austin Powers. Dr. Evil
The basics of self-esteem
Daddy didn't teach 'em
Fellas always asking "Where's a girl's self-respect?"
Out the door with her father
Or on the floor with her dress
Didn't want to go that far
But how else can I ensure your love?
Oh, I never can. Thanks operator for the 411
Wish I woulda known before I sucked you up.
Man you're a tricky beast
But I don't feel like no beauty
Man that beauty is a beast
In the form of a booty
Man I can't stand those Disney movies
Ok I lied. I love those films.
But they got me thinking
Why can't the men in my life be like them?
For you, I compromised my very essence
In a since, you can say I'm pissed
Matter fact, I'm incensed
More at you or myself?
That's a question I ponder
Cuz it's my fault.
My heart I let you launder.
Why am I such a fool?
Learn from your mistakes. Take 59
Took a few tries, but I think I got it right
Don't date a dude that refers to you as a "downgrade"
"But I love your brains"
Yea, I bet you do
Do you love hers too?
Or do you love her two?
I'm just saying from my experience
I don't believe them boys when they say they want intellect

Inspired By A Half Moon

Is that the Heavens smiling down on me?
Or is it my God
Sending down a frown on me?
Discontent with the way I've been living.
Uphill on a snowy mountain
No snow boots
I've been slipping.
I put my hands down to catch me when I fall.
But I'm reaching in the wrong direction
Relying on a misconception
I forgot about the one whose been there since my conception.
You see everyone's always telling me to trust no one.
They say in this world you can only count on one.
And in the midst of it all, they got me believing
That the one is myself. You see, them folks are deceiving.
I let myself down a lot times infinity.
Man, even I can't win with me.
Ya feeling me
I walk around here like a nun on drugs
Shhh...
I hope ya eyes are wide shut so you don't see me bug
-gin out. No doubt this act can be draining
Planned the perfect picnic then it's started raining
Seems nothing comes out just the way I want
I'm broken inside, but you believe the front
Quiet Christian girl with no obvious afflictions
Little do you know I have a hidden addiction
No it's not on sex, drugs, or alcohol
This problem is purely mental
Patience is that virtue I yet not possess
Stamina and trust have eluded me yet
I'm tired of playing, but I'm out of time outs
I got one more chance before I foul out
I look to my left and notice God bench riding
19 years playing by myself. I'm tired
Trust in the world
First class ticket to hell
Reach my hands up; don't wanna take this flight
God is in control now
I'm taking a break

Brother, Where Art Thou?

Sooo....I really need to be studying for a bio practicum I have tomorrow, but I was just overcome with emotion. I was on facebook just clicking around and I saw my brother changed his relationship status to "in a relationship".

I am just upset because this girl of his most likely knows him better than I do. She's probably known him longer than I have. I have this protective older sister syndrome, but is it even warranted? I couldn't tell you about my brothers' idiosyncrasies. I couldn't tell you what made them tick. I don't have any funny stories about their childhood. I don't have any childhood memories of them. I don't know if I can dictate how I feel right now. It's like that saying "blood is thicker than water" doesn't apply, because our blood has been diluted by nearly two decades of disconnect.

I love my brothers.
They make me smile.
Raised apart, but we're so much alike.
Now that they're in
They'll never escape my life.
They say a siblings bond is one unbreakable
They also say, don't believe everything they say
All I want is to experience that ease
That comes with knowing someone for years
But to get that, I guess I have to start...here.

Can People Change?

So...it's one of the age old questions. Can people really change? I know you've heard of phrases like, "once a cheater, always a cheater." But do you think they're actually true?

What I think-->Not completely true.

Why?--> Because everyone makes mistakes. Now, you get people that don't care about how their mistakes make other people feel...in that case, they won't change. But if you are like me, you've examined you actions and determined that you don't ever want to have to deal with the consequences to those actions again.

I guess you basically have to take it by a case by case basis. It's not fair to continuously punish someone for past actions, especially if they've shown no recent actions that deserve punishment.

Answer: People can and do change...constantly. For the better and for the worse.